Understanding in the Midst of Atlantic Waves

I cannot believe I only have 3.5 weeks left. There were time when I couldn't wait for it to be over, but now I am hoping that time moves slow. There is still so much I want to do. I love it here, it still feels like a dream. The other day I went to long beach and I swam in the ocean waves. There is something powerful and lifechanging about the ocean. I remember being there letting the strength of the waves beat me down. It was like you can hit me, but i'll just get right back up. At the same time I feared the depths of the water. How deep can you before you drown. That is so scary. I love how, we can be in one place at one moment and have such intense thoughts. After swimming I sat on the white sandy beach and I wrote. I continued a journal entry I was writing about realtionships. Suddenly I was really aware of God's work in my heart. I was picturing my experiance in the waves, my fear to go deeper and I connected that physical fear to the internal fears in my life and suddenly I wasn't afraid to discover what is next. I think once we can be open with our deepest fears, that is when we can conquer them. I am excited to see where this revelation takes me. I know the journey is hard and I know it's worth it.